Standing Room Only

Back in the jurassic someone told me he needed to be needed and he didn't feel I needed him. Being young and dumb I found this confusing. Now with the benefit of some gray hairs and wisdom, I think that is a sick statement people make when they themselves are emotionally bottomless pits. Now I know when I have people in my life who "need" me, I find them exhausting people who are really focused on themselves. People who don't know how to give w/o expecting something in return. I'd much rather have relationships with people who give as good as they get, like my hubby, like my friend Becki, like many others in my life. And still there are those who are suck up all the energy you allow. I realized this morning that it is not my responsibility to be their caretakers. There is a limit to what I can give. I wish I could give them strength.

Auntie is getting out of the hospital today so Norma and I will go and pick her up in a few minutes. Then Katydid and I are going to see a house and go to the dia de los muertos parade. My day is full!

In The Driver's Seat

Well this week is filling up. Can I just say I'm tired? I simply can't wait for a week off. What I need is a day to watch soaps and read Merl's kindle and maybe take a walk in the desert without a 70 lb dog dragging me along and peeing on every weed. Don't mean to be snarky but this is my little therapy session where I don't have to smile and act like I'm some friggin' angel, which I am NOT. The little catholic girl in me is a saint most days, peace love dope, all that jazz. So here, just for this moment, I am going to let my bitch flag fly in all it's glory. The flag flies for an hour and then I don my wings and take my aunt to lunch, then I take my handicapped friends to the store. All done with a smile and a hug. Wash rinse repeat tomorrow!